just let it be, don't plan don't plan :D

indecisive moment

2012-01-25T13:43:00.000+08:00

can really make me so moody ;(

Y U NO DECISION?

not quite a happy CNY this year round. no angpao's and hardly any visitation. like i'm all grown up and this tradition seems to be fading away, of course i'm referring to me myself. at least i had my cousin came down from Klang 2 days ago and we just spend time in the epic-crowded-pool-full-of-imigrants Ulu Kanching, Rawang which better known as Templer Park. oh well, so much fun. HA HA! the monkeys there are not helping. basically what i'm saying is that it wasn't what i expected. i THOUGHT this year is a brand new year for me to start after going through major ups and down last year. so my CNY didn't flow the way i IMAGINE it would be. was a lil bit disappointed with all the cancellation of plans and visitation. its not because of the angpao's really, but with all these on and off plans turns me off! think of it, when i'm anticipating for a fun session and then suddenly "Oh Sorry Plan Cancel Ah...." *dafuq*

therefore my mood is so turn off today!

on the brighter side
in deep thoughts, in my own time ;
i spent my time alone. today i did what i could have down long ago.
i fixed my piano pedal, i change 2 of my guitar's strings, i played my piano, i played my guitar, i look through my old blogs and read them, i read my books, i blog, i recover old password to access old sites.....

its the 25th day of the new year, the first month is about to end and i've did something useful, i'm glad now :)

choices

2011-09-03T20:38:00.001+08:00

made, no turning back.

its you & me, against the world.

forgive me
kiss you goodbye by leehom

WAITING

2011-07-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

is such a pain!

trying to love myself

2011-07-03T20:04:00.002+08:00

its weird reading this cause some of it is kinda true :s

"Sagittarians tend to be very attentive to the needs of others, and are very "tuned in" to what others are thinking. Their natural powers of perception, combined with their uplifting energy make them excellent conversationalists. Often gifted with an amazing sense of humor, Sagittarius can make almost anyone smile."

i hope i've made people smile in my life, i hope that i have entertain you with my 'amazing sense of humor', ya right.. HAHAHAHA :)

_____________________________________________

there another web saying,

"If Sagittarians experience moodiness or depression, they may hide this side of themselves from the rest of the world. Some Sagittarians always determined to at least "look happy" to conceal their moodiness, hiding it from others."

so forgive me, i'm learning to be expressive but its not in my nature. give me some time, leave me to hide myself before i climb out to face the world. however smiles i've given out has always been the sincere smile from my heart.

___________________________________________

"You can be comfortable in the wilds of nature or the civilized urban settings and with your love of freedom and travel you often seem as if you have one foot out the door, ready to bolt to ensure your freedom. Sagittarius rules travel, so running, jogging, hiking, camping, rock climbing, canoeing--anything that will keep you in locomotion—keeps you stimulated."

oh well, this explain why i like to be adventurous and outgoing. so keep me stimulated!!! more sports, more games, more outing, more FUN :)

___________________________________________

"Extremely giving and honest, Sagittarians seek partners who they can trust implicitly. They seek soulmates with whom they can travel, explore new ideas and laugh. To Sagittarius, laughter is the root of all things. No problem or situation is too serious for laughter -- and through laughter one can get through anything. Sagittarians are very passionate, but often seek a light-hearted relationship for long periods before revealing their deeper, soulful side."

my problem is that i love to have fun with my love ones, therefore my time spend with love ones is very demanding. no doubt i am very very sticky and very not independent. so laugh with me often and i'll fall in love with you. but the good thing about me is i'm EXTREMELY GIVING wakakakka :p

_____________________________________________

ahh whats with this self-promo?!? anyways reading some of this personality thingy was fun, but i guess my personality is how i shape it myself in this journey call life. gonna grow up and hold on to what God has promise me in my life, looking forward for more good stuff days ahead of me.

pic courtesy of : dthoughtsofmine's Blog

NOTHING..

2011-06-30T23:08:00.002+08:00

can ever beats... the time i spent with my girlfriends :)

i love every single bit of them

vivid dreams

2011-06-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

i had a conversation with mum, of a vivid image i remember long ago when i was 3 years old or 4, i can't remember.. when daddy was in the hospital for an operation. i remember it so well when i see daddy enter into the MRI. i felt pain and the suffer that daddy go through, but mummy was like;

"no we never see daddy going into the MRI, i didn't bring you to the hospital..."

how come that image is so clear in my mind even until today. i remember it so well. was i dreaming or hallucinating? mum said i might have dream seeing daddy, but that image that flashback is so real. i felt that i was there with daddy. it has become a memory so strong that i can cry at the thought of it.. :'(

i had this fear. fear that i'm all alone. fear that no one is with me. this few days, i've been working hard not to think so much, but it seems my mind is so hardworking that 'she' is thinking every minute every day...

... loneliness

a year. no plans no initiative. an ordinary night. its okay.

happy 11 :)

2011-05-11T23:06:00.003+08:00

11.11pm

11.05.2011

its happy 11 today

for me

my thankful list:
finally ended internship and back to college and can meet up with my lovely friends.
excited for tomoro's getaway with my best friend.
....
..
.

to be continue...
currently my mind is blank.
i'm thinking of what to pack tomoro hehe

... go home

2011-04-27T11:37:00.000+08:00

... wanna go home

Micheal Bublé

few more days and i'm coming back home. internship has taught me how cruel the world can be. through that struggles only one can learn how to grow. i believe i've learn to face challenges and to stand strong. its not just about me doing it with my own strength but

; its Him who gives me strength

; its Him who provides all the support i need

; its Him who gave me the wisdom to solve any difficulties

; its Him who send angels to guard over me

; its Him who gave me the Peace that surpasses all understanding

; its Him who gave me the Patient to go through tough times

; its Him being there all along with me, for me

i'm truly thankful for all my supportive friends who's always there to encourage me and make me feel better. another few weeks and finally i can go home...

inspired by beloved Micheal Bublé for his wonderful song, Home

serve me right :(

2011-02-24T15:17:00.000+08:00

for the first time, i fail in my exam. its not something that i can take it seriously.
i could have study the before exam, but i choose not too. i choose to play around. i choose not to be serious in exam. in the end, i fail. but yeah, serve me right. this is going to be a lesson of my life.
i'm not quite happy with my performance and i won't repeat this same mistake again.

2011-02-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

there's just too much that time cannot erase

such'a relaxing internship

2011-02-12T00:05:00.000+08:00

currently doing my internship at Metafilm Sdn Bhd & i'm having a great time.
looking forward for more exciting and fun fill work load soon.
thankful for the blessing by my bosses on the first day of work, angpao's, lunch and tv time.
today me & my colleagues just watch national geographic about Octopus.
we are so bored that we clean the whole studio and store full of cameras, cables, tripod, lights

.......
.....
....
...
..
.

zomg, i'm just so lazy to elaborate details of my internship. haha.
if you're so happen to be nearby tropicana area, do drop by & meet me lah.

:)

You Are Not Alone

2011-02-11T23:56:00.001+08:00

Petition Against Malaysian Dog Abuser toward SUSHI the Brown Toy Poodle Petition

2011-01-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

Petition Against Malaysian Dog Abuser toward SUSHI the Brown Toy Poodle Petition

pls click this in support of STOPPING DOG ABUSE!

your support is much appreciated. thanks you all.

kisses to you

2011-01-17T12:24:00.000+08:00

S E A W E E D S N A C K S

i-no-doubt-am

anticipating to nom nom nom on my own made yummy seaweed snacks during this holiday season :) weeeeeee..... opps, i finish it even before chinese new year haha!

so basically i had this homemade seaweed snacks which i did it with myself and my servant ann baby. HWAHWAHWAHWA! it was a nice experience for me cause its my first time doing this snack. it such a feeling of triumphant and fruitfulness. but too bad we start at a very bad timing, 10pm until 1am. yeah i can hear you said WOW right. but thank God we manage it well and behold, you shall see what happen throughout the process of making it.

we had the ingredients ready beforehand. seaweeds, popiah skin and white egg.

step 1 : we just basically glue with egg and paste them together

step 2 & 3 : the cut and separate process is tougher than i thought. the popiah skin tend to stick together and i have to literally separate them to prevent them sticking together. big sigh to that.

step 4 & 5 : TADAA! done. the after frying session. hehe. yummy and can be eaten in a frac of seconds. WEEEEEEE :D

oohh not forgetting dearest sis Diane who provide yummy oregano egg bacon mayo wholemeal sandwich as breakfast. the taste is unbelievable & awesome. hehe. thank you thank you dearest sis. HAHA.

AHMC 4314 : TV PRODUCTION

2011-01-15T12:38:00.000+08:00

IS DOOMED

farewell sir

2011-01-15T10:13:00.001+08:00

sometimes people whom we love will just leave all of a sudden.

the loss of a brother in Christ made me realise, no matter young or old, we can bid farewell.

age is not an issue if its time for a person to go.

here to say ... ...

farewell mr gavin uma

i pray that God will keep his beautiful family in good health with peace and joy.

his beautiful wife and daughters.

we know right now you are in a better place, in heaven.

where no hurts nor sorrow dwells.

last night during the memorial service, i begin to wonder a lot of outcome in the future.

what will happen to me if my love ones leave me?

what will i do when a person i care bids farewell to me?

what happen if its my family? or friends?

it keeps me wondering still...

up up in the sky

2011-01-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

Here we go, come with me. There's a world out there that we should see.

Take my hand, close your eyes. With you right here, I'm a rocketeer.

Let's fly, fly, fly, flyyy, Up, up, here we go, go

Where we stop nobody knows

(far east movement - rocketeer)

losing my mind

2011-01-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

oh gosh, despite my finals is so near me, but yet i'm still playing around.
i'm losing my mind, nervous because i have not studied properly for exam.
but i can't help it.
facebook, blog, facebook & CITYVILLE
:(

i wanna study but look where am i...

HERE
b o o h o o

i have so much in mind right now.
i wanna eat mcd.
i wanna go fly kite.
i wanna play!
.......................................................................... zomg~

of fun and love

2011-01-03T21:33:00.001+08:00

first two days of new year...

a girls gathering with my high school mates. i realise we're all getting much prettier and good looking each year. i miss hanging out with them and definitely had a great time catching up with each of them. especially dearie yee vern who came back from new zealand, she's looking so ang-moh now. hehe.

ann . bee . myself

three girls out for fun in sunway lagoon and no doubt we had an awesome time

new year 2011 is good

thumbs up!

twothousandandeleven

2010-12-31T16:24:00.000+08:00

"found love beyond all reason..."

(time has come, hillsong)

today is the very last day of 2010 and it will never come back. i had a moment when i flashback what happen throughout the year 2010, truly i feel thankful having fun moments with my family & friends. although at times there have been ups and down, but it made me stronger and bold. i don't think i'm the same person as before. i've grown so much in words and action *well at least i think i do*. but if i haven't do let me know :)

my dearest parents, i am thankful for you both, taking care of me & my everything. there are times where i let you down and shouted at you, both you still love me & took care of me despite my bad attitude. daddy and mummy, at the moment i do not have treasures or gold to repay you, but all i can give you is my obedience and love. i promise to be a better daughter to you next year because I LOVE YOU BOTH sincerely and i want to give you my very best.

my dearest friends, i've encounter many different challenges with different individuals and it has shown me how unique a person can be. we got to continue learn from one another, help with our best effort and offer encouragement because this is something that we need. i'm glad that me and my friends, we care for each other so very much that we take every chances to meet up. i appreciate all that i've went through with my friends, it may be happy moments, it may be sad moments but still they are all precious. well at least i know what to do when i face difficulties when it comes to friends.

thank you to beloved advance diploma. its almost the end of year 1 that we spent altogether. so we shall see each other in internship or maybe after internship. i started of quite badly & rough during this advance dip but i manage to pull it through and right now i'm comfortable with everything.

not forgeeting all the trips that i enjoyed this year. it is truly God's blessing that i'm able to travel around and enjoy God's beautiful creation. overall i had a fruitful year. therefore i'm looking forward to begin a new year, year 2011 with more good stuff.

till then

broga hill trip :)

we graduate diploma

we had a beautiful night altogether

sending our beloved JiangLi jie jie to macau

sending our diva Alicia to uk

new group of friends that we can go crazy!

assignment group in advance dip.

cameron trip, on of the most wonderful trip spent with my college friends.

there are a lot a lot of wonderful trip that can be name, genting twice with my friends & buddies, broga hill, camp in PD, cameron highland trip with my college friends, pulau kukup, sitiawan...etc. lols so many places that i just can't seem to write it all out.

one thing for sure, i enjoyed myself in the presence of amazing people i know in my life

now before i go, i'm gonna wish all of you,

A very Blessed New Year.

Blessed 2011 & May God shower you with His blessing for you & family.

i love you all

Jesus loves you too

she left...

2010-12-16T22:37:00.000+08:00

when i log in to Facebook 5 minutes ago, i was welcomed by a news.

a shocking news.

a beloved teacher of mine has passed away.

every high school friend of mine wrote about death, how death is so ugly.

some shared their condolences, some were really sad.

life goes in just a blink of an eye.

no one knows what will happen next, what to expect.

all i can say is that NOW i'm upset, why she left all of a sudden.

she always look cheerful and bubbly, never frowning.

Pn Chin Sien,

you've been a caring teacher towards your students.

you've shared love and care genuinely without selfishness.

Rest In Peace.

you're always one of my favourite teacher, never will change.

headache!

2010-12-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

YOU is never a friend of mine.
YOU make me feel very moody.
YOU stop me from enjoying my fun time.
YOU, i hate you.
go away lah!

傻傻的 :)

2010-12-13T16:35:00.000+08:00

李淑恩

hahahaa you think you very cute ah!

just to remind you that you are getting older each day.

muahahha

don't worry you still look so young and cantik until all the lelaki have to line up wait for you.

heyy ann babyy, thank you for all the time being there for me through my ups and down. really appreciate all that you have done, time spent, money spent, food eaten, places gone......etc. you know i know we know how many funs we've had lah. you only need to practice how to be a good housewife only lor! must be patient and hang the clothes properly. haha. hao la, i talk too much nonsense till sien diao. take care dearest :)

wooo i like like like this one <3

again before i go....

BLESSED BIRTHDAY ANN BABYY

<3<3<3

greeen padi :D

2010-11-29T22:27:00.000+08:00

i never have thought my weekend which is suppose to be in the pool swimming

and then facial massage would end up with a road trip to

Sitiawan, Perak

a place that i've been eye-ing to go cause of the

GREEN PADDY FIELD

one word,

AWESOME

thank you for the wonderful funfill weekend again. haha :)

xiang pau, yummy and one of the freshest i've ever tasted.

small lil girl, ann babyy and me.

AWESOME

my very own...

2010-11-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

wow if i can have all these tumblerss...

i will be enjoying java chip for every different tumbler.
haha. i begin to feel that these beautiful tumbler is very useful.
but only lah, i where got money to buy so many tumbler, not enough place to put also.

but i'm grateful enough to have this
:)

my very own tumbler from a special love one :)

LEE SOOK ANN

aduii terima kasih. you left me speechless.

i don't know what to say but thank you.

hehe

i finally have my very own starbucks tumbler. yeahhh.

uncertainty

2010-11-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

one hour of waiting, changes the certainty inside.
one call to talk, shift the feelings beneath.
what am i certain of is not as firm as before.
why would i let it shake me?

challenging, am i giving up or holding on?

priceless

2010-10-31T01:09:00.000+08:00

i've been doing my editing for the whole night & i hope i can finish up, give my 100% in it.

at the beginning it didn't go so well, but i guess i pulled off, manage to work out the lousy part.

but i need more time to work on it.

anyways, today i had a good fellowship with ann baby.

just spending some time chatting & updating events, talk talk talk talk talk non stop.

so we went for makan, something that i've been craving.

so while waiting at table 1, no one came to serve.

it is a busy saturday until no waiter bothers the customers.

ishh. we waited & they have this bell where we keep pressing for service, but STILL no one came to serve.

so in the end we got piss, we change table to table 35.

beter feng shui, better view.

just then a waiter pass by & i sort of force him to serve us.

HAHA in the end, we finally ordered. thanks to the friendly waiter.

phewww.

as we're waiting, spotted a couple, a so loving couple who were too too sweet.

beh tahan lor. they keep staring at us, and we keep looking secretly at them.

my gosh the whole scenario is just so weird.

after yummy food, we went around walking.

so happy to meet our new friend, Tang Tang.

He is so friendly & so sweet.

well, definitely we shall see him more.

he made us laugh like some crazy people.

he even bless us so much of sweets, 67 sweets. haha.

overall, time spent today is very very fruitful, productive & priceless.

wow :)

torn decision

2010-10-16T10:32:00.001+08:00

i'm so excited to get a new experia the other day, until this guy who told me

"why you wanna get experia mini pro. not good one. especially it got no bluetooth."

ohh gosh, heart terus crashh, broken. i've check, it got bluetooth but its only for the headset & not for transferring files. thats the bad thing about experia. sigh. i was so disappointed so i finally resort to choose bb. this few weeks i've been surveying on bb, trying to learn & understand its various function & use. haha. i realise there's so much about bb that i do not know. previously i wanted to get myself a bold 9000. but as i surveyed, i began to like bold 9700 & curve 9300. still looking & still studying which one i want. i do hope the money that i spend for bb is worth it lah.

bold 9700

curve 9300

hmmmm. i still need more time to decide on the one i want & worth it.

broken promise

2010-10-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

is not something everybody wants.
not when the promise is broken straight in your face.
it doesn't feel good when you can't get angry when the promise is broke.

promise. don't take it lightly or don't take it seriously?
i guess both answer never work well for me.
maybe one shouldn't promise me.
never make promise.
no broken promise.
it hurts.

how to decide?

2010-09-28T11:52:00.000+08:00

all of a sudden, i've been given choices, to select what i want. i've made up my mind but the others attract me as well.
what should i choose? how to decide lah?

blackberry bold 9000

iphone 4

my love : se experia mini pro

or daddy promise is just alang alang cakap only. if he just cakap cakap only then i shall BUY my LOVE :)

2010-09-25T10:37:00.000+08:00

to a special person, blessed big day to you.

:)

how i wish i have that boldness...
i still remember...

bangs & curls

2010-09-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

AGAIN

....................

my hair look so distorted this time. i don't mind cause the saloon charge me at a cheap rate.

anyways bad quality picture, i was in a dark dark place, so therefore after editing, i look 'noisy' in this pic.

as i look at this picture, i realise how 'hiao' i can be. haha.

shyshy

beautiful night

2010-09-22T00:15:00.000+08:00

you must be a runner,

because you're always running in my mind.

you must be a great thief,

because you stole my heart.

i feel love everyday

just do it

2010-09-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

1. click on My Computer
2. click on C:
3. click on windows
4. click on media
5. click on tada

don't ask so much, just do it.

bitch!

2010-09-08T21:26:00.000+08:00

right now, i have something to complain.

my phone's being a bitch.

wake up you lousy phone!

i need you until the end of the year lahh.

gahh, not in the ultimate mood to blog.

screw you that broke my mood to talk about holidays.

i'm not happy now.

the last paper

2010-09-02T00:35:00.000+08:00

tonight, my very last day to strive for my finals. i've put in effort to study, despite the last minute revision but i still made it. every night when clock strikes 12am, only i will bring out my notes and revise it properly. haha so thats why panda eyes is getting serious each day.

few nights of revision with my favourite partner, makes studying much more relaxing. although it seems like there's so much more to revise, but somehow i can still manage my studies. making short notes to prepare myself for the papre next day. to my favourite partner, although you keep disturb me non stop, i still am thankful for accompanying me. i know that you're tired & sleepy & a bit stress out, but you're still willing to spent time to come out and be by my side. lols, i appreciate the effort that you have put in to make me happy. hehe. you made my day, you made me smile :)

pass two days has been weird. people says it fate. but still i feel its unbelievable or i should say bizarre. first day, saw you at a place i never expect to see you, fine. but second day, saw you again at another place which i never expected. why? fate? making fun of me? i never expect to see you out there so randomly, not once but twice! in two days. somehow i am unable to make my steps to you to say hi although i feel i should. i do not know whether you see me or not but i know i see you when you walk pass me before leaving.

alrighty, the last paper , do my best :)

then i can have abundant of rest during my holidays in various places with various friends

坏了？

2010-08-30T16:16:00.000+08:00

她变坏了，不再是个乖女孩

她抽烟，还想当时她答应过不会抽

真是伤脑筋为什么偏偏会被那般有人影响

唉失望

婷，我无话可说

你想怎样搞就怎样

希望你早点反省，不要再搞扎自己了

rest in peace

2010-08-28T00:13:00.000+08:00

Uncle Zaini

you've been a jovial person, encouraging and loves to smile.

its a loss for us all and me.

thank you for the wonderful free sweets you often give me,

ever since young until i grow up.

i'll miss you & you'll be in my heart.

the ending

2010-08-27T02:06:00.000+08:00

someone said :

"the hottest love has the coldest end"

guess i should say :

"the hottest friendship has the coldest ending"

oh yeah, i agree much.

so keep our love warm will do

the warm love has the warm...... lols at the moment, no ending.

may our days continue to be filled with never ending warmness.

this feeling i'm feeling

2010-08-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

blog hopping & am so suprise to read a lovely blog. however i decide not to disclose whose blog is that lah. a blog about life, a blog bout what have been through, a blog of something that i *think* i felt the same way.

yes this blog is dated so long ago, and this person still keeps it. *jealous* somehow it makes me regret for removing and deleting all my previous blog post. it could have been a precious memory to myself. sigh. but what done is done. all my 2003 till 2006 memories are just mere memories & pictures.

DROWNING

I look at you and my anger rages like an ocean,

A vast sea of wasted feeling,

And precious time,

Hurt  by the thing you say and do to me,
And the thing you don't think I hear,
Or you don't think I'll find out.

They always find their way back to me,
And the gaps and oceans,
Between us grow wider and vaster and deeper.

As words get between us until,
Neither of us know what to say,
And nothing is left to do but turn around,
And look the other way

Telling lies,
To let the other one know who's not hurt  the most,
When really all it does is tear   me up inside.

My empty heart is screaming ,
Fighting against the currents,
Of love and hate, pulling away from each other,
Like the moon and the ocean,
As we grow farther apart.

I want to talk,
To try to work thing out and
Repair the rift that keep growing.
But words get in the way,
I get angrier  and more frustrated .

Last time we share our feeling, our story, our secret
Spend the time to know each other.
But and now refuse to allow,
Because one of us might let our guard down,
And say or do something that will make the other angry .

Now my feeling is hurt  and angry ,
I can't believe I get so hurt ,
But somehow I write this,
Not because I want to but because I have to for you and for myself.
The crack seems to heal itself for sometimes until it missing.
I just don't know when it will heal ---> by itself.
And I just need sometime to cool down.
We maybe can't be friend anymore.--->

currently listening to Lady Antebellum, can't take my eyes of you.

stroll

2010-08-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

along the mother of nature

is beautiful

i enjoyed my day

am i brave enough?

2010-08-13T20:41:00.000+08:00

the braver i am, the more i'll see

live life to explore. fulfill the purpose of living

DO NOT fear of circumstances coming my way but

TAKE the challenges as an opportunity to grow.

haha got inspired by coraline the movie.

the quotes however are squeeze from my teeny weeny brain

pass few days i've been dreaming by myself to achieve what i want on my own. so i've been thinking, its time i set a goal for myself again after so long. so my goal right now is to get a new phone. this time its gonna be different. i'm gonna work all my best, to get the money needed to buy my dream phone, no longer depend on my parents. but but but, it was merely a dream. what was suppose to be closer to me a step, today has gone further from me a step.

lols plan went well until few days ago, i spent my money unnecessarily on things that is useless. haha FOOD! goshh, temptation of food is so immense that i couldn't hold myself. the aroma of the food came swimming, the tummy began grumbling, pictures of foods began swirling... you name it, maggi goreng, roti tisu, ayam goreng, burger, cheese naan, pizza...

TELL ME, HOW TO RESIST?!?

gahh i failed myself today. i should start puasa like the malays right now. i must have self control. DO NOT spend unnecessarily on food. come on, save the money for a better use. THINK OF EXPERIA X10 MINI PRO, i can DO IT. hwahwahwahwa.

*opps i accidently think of maggi goreng and tummy goes 'grrrr'

i want this, to accomplish my dream :D

2010-08-10T18:11:00.000+08:00

To accomplish great things ,

we must not only act ,

but also dream ;

not only plan ,

but also believe

- Anatole France

yeap true indeed. i'm dreaming of my SE Experia X10 Mini PRO.

i will act on getting it, will start planning to save cash for it, stop wasting money, earn it and BELIEVE i will get this beauty soon before the end of the year. go mad :D

2010-07-30T15:23:00.000+08:00

seriously how fucked up life can be.

today feeling like this, other day feel like that.

why must a friendship be so complicated?

i hate you.

i said it.

but then i care for you.

stupid enough.

i wanna stop feeling stupid.

i wanna just stand out there and laugh my ass off.

i just wanna shout as if there's nothing around me.

wth, why can't this feeling just fade off?!?

i'm tired of arguing all the time.

i'm tired of taking care a friendship.

when will i let go?

很矛盾

drowning

2010-07-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

under the melodious music that i've not heard for ages.
somehow every song has its own memories.

lols, somehow gotten emo0iish today.
oh well, lately have been thinking a lot of good old stuff.
maybe thats why i got so easily emotional. haha.

thanks to :
. avenged sevenfold - warmness on the soul
. britney spears - sometimes
. westlife - if i let you go
. barbra streisand - the way we were
. wonder girls - saying i love you
. agnes monica - matahari
. lady antebellum - need you now

hrmph...

回忆

2010-07-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

as i was doing my thesis in the afternoon, suddenly i'm being reminded of my diary. all my diaries, even the one i shared with my besties.so i took a while to find it & look through it. teeehhee, so much things have happened. those funny moments together. i miss the good old times. recall back those lame stuff i did. i had so much fun with so many friends during my high school moments, camps with dynamic youth & footprints, redang trip & the klang people, jojo my very first pet and moree. so many things happened even some of it i don't remember at all. lols how childish we can be when we're so young & naive much.

ever since i'm in college, i realise how much i've not have fun with my other friends. i've got my own new friends & neglected the old ones. well of course both old & new friends are precious to me. silly of me, as i look through those things i wrote, i smiled to myself. then i decide to look through the old pictures in my old dekstop. oh my goshh, so many things to remember. psst i realise i've got so much pictures :D

lots have pass and now things have change. many of us use to be so close with one another but now when we meet there's awkwardness. how weird. as i look back at the old pictures, tears just fell. i've not spent time with so many of them!

this use to be my old room, still blue full of my hubby, daniel radcliffe's posters :D

mae. lini. sha.

as i look through our pictures, there's so much things we did together. we can go like super crazy together, doing things together, eat kfc, go tuition, go my house, her house or her house, shopping, movie, sleepover, swimming, mamak, dinner or supper, so much more lahh. seriously uncountable. oh well, our SOM is always updated. hehe. i doubt you both will even remember it weii.

how the whole group of us will hang out together despite from different classes

dynamic youths. i miss those times lahh, where semua orang go crazyy.

ohhh gosh, if i were to put upload everythings up, it would take forever. but basically this is what i wanna say, i miss all my good moments from the past :D

me & baby jojo <3

dearest baby, i love you

sunday?

2010-07-09T22:33:00.000+08:00

the relief felt right after handing up moral & ethics assignment.

can't wait to finish up all the assignments and not bother bout homework anymore.

at least there's something i can look forward to this sunday.

a special day.

a good time with my friends again.

那一阵子

2010-06-30T18:21:00.000+08:00

突然有点不舍得
只希望还有机会遇见到你
真得疼过你, 让我觉得有点心痛
你那样突然从我身边, 失去重影

祝福你能够开开心心的
没有烦恼的过日子

tueji, naneun seulpeoyo. eor yeo woyo. bogoshipo.
you should know, uri heeo jyeosseo.

:D

officially

2010-06-11T17:48:00.000+08:00

missing you

today is the day where i can't stop smiling

its a good day to smile :)

2010-06-07T22:20:00.002+08:00

You make me smile like the sun

Fall out of bed, sing like bird

Dizzy in my head, spin like a record

Crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool

Forget how to breathe

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Ohh, you make me smile

`uncle cracker - you make me smile

2010-06-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

i miss you so freaking bad.

i wanna see you very very much.

feel my hugs & kisses for you

2010-06-06T20:35:00.000+08:00

i think i'm addicted to you

:D

2010-05-27T23:43:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling so appreciated all of a sudden

by someone special

that really cares for me

through the rough times

has bring me up and walk alongside with me

has encourage me and cheer me up

i'm really thankful for her

she's a blessing in my life

time may have rob us of knowing, spending more time together

but yet i know for sure

she will always be there to bully me

HAHAHAHA

i'm gonna miss her so much

i'm gonna stalk her much much

gahh i just love her lahh

thank you thank you thank you PIGGY!

cameron trip

2010-05-13T12:44:00.000+08:00

last mon-tues-wed, the 14 of us went cameron for a time-out / gathering / fun moments together. there's so much pictures which i can't wait to see. but few things to highlight :D

we walk a total of 9km journey while in cameron
every night was so crazy. first night was a high night, second night was MY drunk night. ohh goshh.
we met with an indian family who became our friend.
out of the 10 girls who went cameron, 7 of us came period. haha.
we met with awesome ang moh in the bus that went crazy with us.
we played the mafia game at night, in the bus.
ohh the journey there, so many people vomitted. tskk. but journey back everyone had good times.
we chilled at starbucks, laughing and crying.
we celebrated dear connie 21st birthday although we had a small fight among the few of us.
we really camwhore so much. its crazy.
i think overall 3 days 2 nights gaves us so much memories.

i'm really gonna miss all the times we had together. hehe. part 2 coming soon, when i get the photos.

scent of you lingers

2010-05-13T12:30:00.000+08:00

extraordinary morning, embrace under that familiar scent :D

new love

2010-04-26T14:35:00.000+08:00

say hello to hoegaarden

turns out it was so yummy. the next thing i know, i almost puke when i had carlsberg.

so hoegaarden, its my new thing for now. gahh i'm such an alcoholic lahh.

CHEERS ~

google gravity, the new fun

2010-04-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

:D

type google gravity, click i'm feeling lucky.

2010-04-22T01:09:00.000+08:00

tears just flow. i did it again. unintentionally our actions hurt you. sorry. you're not alone. we just need some more time. pain don't just evaporate easily. and we're equally lousy.

spending my days

2010-04-21T15:05:00.000+08:00

have a beautiful week ahead.

LOVING IR? maybe

2010-04-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

maybe not. but maybe yes.

itu orang cheer me up cukup

absolutely.duper-ly

2010-04-18T00:05:00.007+08:00

I N . L O V E . W I T H

t h i s . s m i l e

you're my imaginations that comes to life
<3

thats how we end diploma

2010-04-16T11:21:00.000+08:00

time flies so fast, two years have gone and what's left to keep us together is our final IR paper. this morning i woke up, suddenly felt so empty. haha. its like there's no need to rush for classes, no need to worry bout assignments, nothing.

thank God we had great times with one another during classes, even though there's ups and downs, conflicts and misunderstands, arguements and arguements, but suprisingly these all keep us even closer with each other. i'm so glad when i see smileys in every pictures we took.

some of us spend a day out together, having pure fun together.

this trip is one precious trip that i will always remember.

classmates that i really appreciate much

yeap, my beloved classmates E3. made up from cina, melayu, india dan lain lain. we're One Malaysia :D

yeah we're known as the noisiest class in our course, and we're popular. hehe

say goodbye DBC2. well we're not complete actually, there's more of us.

my awesome gang, CCMJ² (read as C.C.M.J.square)

we had great times hanging out, having fun, chit-chatting, being there for one another, talk crap rubbish, make fun of each other, bully each other. those times together is really irreplaceable.

would love to say thank you Connie, Choon Mei, Myself, Jenki & Justin for all the time spent together.

yeah we girls are just so weird together.

behh tahan, i love this picture so much :D

urghh i'm gonna miss DBC so much lahh. it won't be the same anymore. see the rest in near future. we might bump into each other again at workplace.

read this you bitch

2010-04-14T01:45:00.000+08:00

nobody wants to be farking emo & depress everyday. but sometimes things / event just makes you wanna go emo. but at this time, when my finals are here, with the stress going on, i don't think i can handle it anymore.

what will you feel when you go self pity-ing & gets so much comfort from someone else?
what do you feel when someone lies to you?

and again, i trusted you. giving all my time, effort to be there to comfort you, only then i realise you farking faking sadness trying to gain attention by making up sad stories, making me watch you getting upset and cry.

FARK YOU SERIOUSLY.
READ THIS, I'M TELLING YOU.
YOU FARKING LOOSE MY TRUST THAT I HAVE TOWARDS YOU.
WHAT AM I TO YOU?
like i saw from your email
"SHIT, MAD IS SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS!"
thank you asshole, now i know i'm such a trash for you. since i'm such a pain in your ass, why bother looking for me, helping me previously.
YOU MADE ME HATE YOU TO THE BRIM. I HATE YOU SERIOUSLY.

2010-04-12T23:13:00.001+08:00

fark you. you lie to me again.

blessed easter y'all

2010-04-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

Blessed Good Friday & Blesses Easter today :)
who knew watching CLASH OF THE TITANS in 3D can be so tiring?
i realise i love carrot juice but i hate carrot, i love apple juice but i hate apple.
i had this really yummy lum mee in pandan indah which is fabulous.
so wanna try that cheese stick in lavender.
a friend promise me to be my date for this particular movie i'm anticipating.
hmm fark, that dude call & i'm feeling so annoyed.
double fark that indian man who tries to touch me in a crowded place. get a life la!

all in all sunday went quite okay.

to you my love one, chill babehh. no need to be so fark-off by that bitch.

tueji, noh bogoshipo & sarangheyo. hahaha.

off to finish up International Relation assignments.

hugs :D

shane, i'll see you when i'm done with IR.

trima kasih

pythagoras theorem

2010-04-03T22:12:00.001+08:00

MY MATHEMATIC'S
DETERIORATING

WARHH I CAN'T EVEN COMPLETE A SIMPLE PYTHAGORAS THEOREM...

TOOK A WHILE FIGURING OUT WHAT IS ISOSCELES TRIANGLE...

CRACK BRAIN WHILE CALCULATING AN ALGEBRAIC EXPRESSION...

USED MINUTES TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO FIND COORDINATES...

woah, this is bad. i even forgot how to calculate fractions!?!?! goshh. my brain is really karat-ed / rusty / damage / gone case....

thanks to you dear boy who wants me to teach him how to do maths & re-teach him science. how am i suppose to catch-up or recall all that i've learnt while i'm in high school?!? i've practically return all the stuff to my beloved teachers. so so sorry to all teacher. hahaha.

looks like after exam i'm gonna revise back my mathematic & science again. boo me, i'm such a loser in maths. boohooo

i still believe :D

2010-04-03T11:11:00.000+08:00

the first lunch

2010-03-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

the first lunch ;

the very first lunch we had ALL together at tbr. it felt good to be chit-chatting and having fun with the whole class. its a wonderful afternoon although it was all sweaty and hot and DEFINITELY NOISY

from left : andrew, myself, jen, hidden alicia, justin, heap kai, wei chuan, melvyn, vee ling, louis, derek, mei, connie, hui bee, jess, chermaine, yong xin & photographer cris.

pms

2010-03-30T00:28:00.001+08:00

cause us to well up and cry.
cause us to feel the weird feeling.
cause us to emo-fy ourselves and down.

yet bringing understanding between us & smile bout it

(",) haha (",) hehe (",) hoho :) haha (",) hehe (",) hoho

i love my girls. we share our pms the very same moment.
this is precious :D

2010-03-29T00:39:00.002+08:00

i'm over exhausted. mentally physically.
not in the mood to entertain anyone at all. sorry for the cold tone.

let me rest.

you didn't even look at me.

2010-03-27T17:30:00.001+08:00

it would be good if i did not know you. knew you. SUCKER

2010-03-27T10:52:00.000+08:00

right now, this very minute, i feel like i can just slap any human being in my face.
fark you.
piss to the max.
fark off you farker.
lousy human to the extend of no medicine to cure.
fark you asshole.

2010-03-27T10:42:00.000+08:00

fark. you cross my line of patience. fark you.

2010-03-27T00:55:00.002+08:00

screw you. what a bitch.

2010-03-26T17:55:00.002+08:00

ish bengang.
some people attitude are just so lousy.

epic epic epic

2010-03-23T23:43:00.002+08:00

i have this urge to clean & clear my old old old dekstop.

i ON, SCAN, VIEW, EXPLORE & found an interesting file.

its a note name "PASSSWORD".

haha. i laugh at myself. i used to be so kiddish, keeping all my username & password.

so silly of me.

then i DOUBLE CLICK to OPEN.woahh, i never knew i had so much account. haha.

totally LMAO.

i had social networks like friendster, myspace, hi5, circle99, icq, friend circles, crunchyroll, flixter, few accounts for online gaming, xanga, 2 blogger and even some weird websites that i've totally forgotten of it. but it doesn't matter, some of it, i don't even remember the password. haha. but of course i'm taking precautions by trying to hack into my own account. yes thankfully I'VE SUCCESSFULLY LOG IN TO ALL EXISTING ACCOUNT. i'm gonna terminate some of the non-useful social networks, but some are staying, just as a mere memory of how childish i can be in the past.

lols, the last i check my frienster was 29/11/2007, for myspace it was 17/03/2008. that was so long ago men! despite my disapearance from all these, there are still people so active in those network social like friendster & myspace even hi5!!!

besides that, i took the opportunity to look at all the old pictures. my goshh, i'm so a CAMWHORE last time. then only i remember i use to own digital camera. too bad my very first canon got stolen, and my olympus died on me. pfft.

2008

2007

2006

2005

'05 my other halfs :)

2004

of course newer pictures are all in my lappie. just so you know, i'm blogging with my old dekstop & its freaking lagging -.-'''''

2010-03-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

i'll sum up stuff i wanna say today :

i had kuey teow & nuggets finally after craving it for so long. yeah you can sense my satisfaction.

i hate you who 明知顾问, its annoying alright.

almi babe, do take care of your health. always here to give you full support & encourage you like you do. get well soon babe :)

shoot meh, i haven't start my IR assignment -.-''''' *dooshh*

boo myself, smiling like an idiot when i receive a cute message.

oh goshh, anticipating more of shane. i've no idea why :D

miss ker, go get a life! stop emoing XD

i want to drink something that will make me go blurhh~ miss ker, this is all your fault :(

currently listening to Nothing is Impossible by Planet Shakers, so full of OMM~

psst :

oh and sorry my dear friend for not being able to help you that night when you need help. i am worried for you but i just can't help you. hopefully there won't be a second time of such situation again. take care and i will help you when you're in trouble but not like that night's case.

enjoying :

Through You I can do anything
I can do all things
'Cause it's You who gives me strength
Nothing is impossible
Through You blind eyes are open
Strongholds are broken
I am living by faith
Nothing is impossible
I'm not gonna live by what I see
I'm not gonna live by what I feel
Deep down I know that You're here with me
And I know that You can do anything
I believe, I believe
I believe, I believe in you

a moment like this

2010-03-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

some people wait a lifetime

for a moment like this

some people search forever

leona lewis-moment like this

i'm gonna create my moments like this

this fascinates me

....

a little secret..

tt moments

2010-03-19T16:48:00.001+08:00

tt = tiring thursday

our thursday is our exercise day. so 'rajin' that early morning 8am, we'll have a basketball session, then we'll go swimming, then we'll go IR class, eventually half sleeping in class. but it makes our days awesome.

join us for a non.stop.laughing.basketball.game every thurs morning starting 8am :)

what a great day :D

wind almost blew me away :)

2010-03-18T00:37:00.000+08:00

HELLO ANN BABY :)

SO GLAD TO SEE YOU HERE AGAIN

HWAHWAHWAHWA

.............

anyways

i've got to complain, my teeth is really itchy and itchier and itchier :(

suddenly craving for so much food like kuey teow, nugget, sushi, snacks.... urgh but i can't bite!!!

urghhh, my tummy keep growling lah~ i've been SWALLOWING all my food. i'm hungry!!!

oh yeah, basketball, maybe futsal then swimming all at once later. really gonna do some exercise to keep my body healthy. i need that shape once more. haha. can someone teach me how to keep body in perfect shape? someone? please pretty pretty please i'm begging you ~~~

me // you

alice in wonderland.

nice bo?

so so lor ~

i never fail to make myself look random :D

hot sexay? rawrs

ooh addicted

2010-03-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

todays conversation with a friend made me realise i've miss out a healthy friendship that i use to have before. often conflicts kept us from telling what we feel of one another. in the end we keep all the misunderstanding within ourselves and without realising it, we gradually become less transparent & being secretive with each other. if in that case, what's the point of being friends?

F R I E N D

is one that i can share my ups and downs with

is someone i can trust with no matter what's the situation about

is one that i can have fun with without feeling uncomfortable

is someone that i can be their shoulder

is one when silence between us is comfortable

is one that i can be dependant of

is one who i can encourage and being encourage at all times

he told me :

2010-03-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

p/s keep that special feeling for that special one. thank you for the encouragement :D

only for you to read :)

HeLLo :D
first thing, i'm in a trauma over wriggly worm. why so? thanks to the awesome trip to singapore on sat & sun. pfftt. there's a freaking worm in my freaking mee in freaking singapore's freaking food stall. i thought singapore is very very CLEAN!?!?!?! ZOMG. i've got nothing to say.

started off today kinda pek chek but ended well. looking forward for a great day tomorrow. chiaoz.

2010-03-08T00:07:00.000+08:00

这一段时间
你对我的冷漠 , 我无所谓 ; 只是看到你那么伤心 , 心也跟着疼了
见到你 , 脸上总是没有笑容 ; 见到我 , 一个微笑都没有

好想直接给你一个拥抱 , 让你知道我一直都在你身边
一直都很在乎你 , 一直都很关心你

我并没有后悔 , 那晚的拥抱得了今天的微笑
好久好久没看你的笑容了; 好可爱
好久好久没和你牵手了; 手好像粗了
好久好久没有听你的声音 ; 那温柔的

刚刚又听了你唱给我的歌 , 心酸了一阵
真久没听了 , 我笑了

我一直都在想念你, 哈哈
我好笨 , 太重感情了
一切的痛苦 , 一切的伤害 , 好像都消失了
........
可是你又快要离开了

想告诉你心里的话

2010-03-06T16:10:00.000+08:00

i miss jojo badly.
i met jojo friend today.
he's not as cute as jojo.
but still i care for jojo friend.
he makes me miss jojo even more.
i love you dear.
jojo.
always in my heart.

10am

..........

Dearest friend,
RIP to you, my childhood friend. so shock to hear she got into an accident, hit by a new driver & died on the spot. i do not know what to say. she's just 23 and there's so much ahead of her. i feel so sorry. she's been a fun friend to me in my childhood days.

11am

..........

clearly today started off with bad news. it did affect the current mood for the day. however, i met jojo look-alike today. it lifted me up for a while. but little did i know it makes me miss jojo. i miss jojo so much. if and only i can hold jojo again.

4pm

..........

i'm preparing myself for a great night today. cop rocks so cheer up mad :)

almost regretted

2010-02-26T02:07:00.000+08:00

tonight, i went pavillion for movie.
but i wasn't prepare to watch any movie.
when its my turn
i said :

"percy jackson please"
"sorry, all sold out"
"oh how bout 72 tenants?"
"left this seats only"
"all well ends well 2010?"
"sold out"
"ohh how bout valentines day?"
"also fully taken"

-.-''''''

i was like WHAT?!?!?^~*##$%

so fine.
i was thinking i'm already in paviliion so i must MUST watch a movie.
without much thought i just said

"ok fine. little big soldier then"

woahh, finally a movie for me. just then i realise i don't like war movie, and this looks like war. i haven't even watch the trailer or preview of that movie. then sudenly i regretted.
tskk
tried to get refund but couldn't so in the end i proceed watching that movie.

HAHA
it went quite well. i had good laugh. it was a good movie
:)

2010-02-25T01:00:00.000+08:00

sometimes its weird knowing stuff about your friend from another friend when that friend is someone close to you and he/she didn't tell you about that something
...

i feel betrayed
i feel like i'm a nobody
to that someone

its like he/she being secretive
as though he/she hides stuff from me
its like i'm not worth to know things
its like i'm
...

no longer your friend

2009-12-10T01:26:00.000+08:00

if i can tell
you
what i feel

how you hurt me so badly
:(